Firstly, I'd say I honestly don't know the meaning of this word. I'll mweb (this has to be a word as Merriam Webster is a really nice and amazing dictionary. I personally prefer it, it's easy to use and a lot of things on one place. Plus you get to learn a nice word every day, not that I don't know most of the words they publish daily but yeah. And they have these productive vocabulary building games which makes your time worth spending on them, okay I'll leave this here as this might become a post about Merriam Webster and vocab rather than of ranting my thoughts here lolz) I mean I did, however such a busy mind doesn't really tends to anchor along all of the words that it comes across/ things that drift along deep into the uncharted waters and depths. So yeah. I'm almost done with half of Bastard of Istanbul. Winter break is going smoothly albeit the little twitching pain in my spine and neck is kinda annoying, I'll get it checked soon to rule out any apparent Mets. God forbid and forgive my sinful soul. I am practising this peaceful place technique that my therapist taught me recently and it's really good. You feel so light and empowered after it! At times I can't resist the temptation and urge to talk with people I used to converse with occasionally. Life turns out to blatantly unpredictable obviously albeit you need to sort out stuff while you're at it. Bit I know this, with all the clarity I have infused within my mind that I need not change myself or like something or do something that someone else is doing or likes just to make them like me or come towards me. I am fine in my skin. Be it that I do my even know half of the stuff they do. I mean life is not just about thinking about this stuff right! I'll just pray and have faith and focus. I mean am I going to talk or w.e after getting into my grave lol. It doesn't matter. I shall always have my baby, mum and why of course, God to talk with. I just... Wow. Times reveals so much. And it's very much heartbreaking but equally strengthening. I wore a lehnga (a traditional Pakistani dress, that is skirt oriented with a short or knee length shirt). I loved wearing it! Yes, I love dressing up and putting up eyeshades a d just lip color that's it. No other stuff really. Some eyeliner, mascara, a bit o hair styling and I'm done. Of course, jewellery (not gold! I don't prefer gold but silver and small pendant type stuff, suits me and I don't even care about the price or where I get it from as long as the design caters to my needs,is simple yet powerful and alluring to me- bonus points if it has a infinity sign. Lol)
It was almost turquoise in its shade, yeah the dress, (God, I love pronouncing and reading this word!) Adorable right? Not me, blala. The word! xp Anyways, yeah. And it had a golden glittered net shirt with tissue like stuff's golden ribbon hemmed sleeves.
I just was thinking how my writer's block is getting dragged but then again, I AM writing so it's not really the case. Just swim with the flow, I will and am. So many things to do but they'll happen when they have to, if they're meant to and if they're not, fair enough. I'll be okay with it nonetheless.
Love,
The lost soul
PS. I'll post the images soon. My phone doesn't upload the photographs here idk why. :P
