X Dates and Counting. Lulz.

So many dates! Whoa. LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL. Most amazing times I've had. I love you so much, my dear self. xD

#HappinessFTW #SayNoToTrashyStuff #HangOn

Would you?

I come to you broken and bruised
Would you still consider me your muse?
For this pain, I have no excuse
Oh, its a part of me, I won't refuse
A dilemma really? Are you that confused?
You just will not know, would you?
Your inquest, it's madly profuse
Our love was meant to diffuse
Nothing is nowadays does amuse
Sugarcoating it is no longer a use
Empathy and understanding is what you've lost
You just will not know, would you?


Captain America I love you so much! And Argo-fuck-yourself. xD Ben Affleck you go. *Hearts*. Drafting class really fucked me up today. Insane work to do. Measurements have never been my thing! I won't stop though, now. Would I? And you know what, pressure is good, albeit not that much. There are times and always will be when you're almost off the fence but you just have got to hold on. There are much brighter and happier things to focus on. Books, movies.. The world isn't short of stuff that you won't find solace in. Let it break you, only it won't break you or stop you, it's going to build you and weaponize you even more than before. So keep storming through those pathways with a smile and hope. There's and always will be a light when all other lights fade out. *Okay, I'm treading towards -Lord-of-the-Rings-sick-emotional-state-where-I-miss-Frodo-and-Galadriel-and-every-tiny-bit-in-those-movies* And God, I don't dislike to be with people. If they go away what can I do? Try to dig deep world or just mind your own stuff. Always so keen to meddle in others lives. -.-
#IAmWhereIBelong

PS. The beats and melodies of Chevy Knights (trust me I typed night at first) are so soothing! 

A Way...

I now understand why I cannot write these days. It's frigging unfair. Unfair. Unfair. Unfair. A bit sad. And lonely. I don't lament what has come to pass, but nor do I forget what it has taught me. Some things that were not supposed to be, are, and those that were, perhaps have drifted somewhat out of reach. My soul passes out of touch of genuine-ity and I hurt those I dare not for in their happiness lies my salvation and they are those who have been there. Some that I thought would be with me have left. A mark flares inside my heart from the sadness of their leaving. I am angry over such a long time. Waiting for ghosts. But no longer. Once I find a way, I shall bury my relationships, those that give me pain and bring agony. It won't be regretted. Ever. Just a memory that will make me smile is all it shall stay. But all that is can't be yours. I don't push people away, albeit it sometimes seems I'm very repelling lol. In the end, after all, your best companion is your own self. Anyway, I shall continue to struggle. It will be good for...