So... I don't know. Life gets so wooshy at times.. and then you sit and go years back and then.. you maybe still feel somehow something but its a reminisce of what was.. nothings lasts forever... 

Depth^∞

"I should have never let you let me go..."

P.S. I have this retarded crit on Monday and I just don't want to... 

Stuff

So sometimes life takes us on the verge of overwhelmed-ness filled with fear (yes, that exists in my dictionary at times lol). Jury or no jury I really don't feel like doing this project. Today while at it, I relentlessly asked my weary self (feeling pity for yourself is okay at times too- God, I'm SO justifying me self these days, getting overly aggressive and throwing tantrums at anyone- nobody really takes it except mum and buddy and I feel bad) I just CANNOT let these stupid friggin retarded thoughts get the best of me. As someone once said I have to save my head for later shit) so well, I cried so much that my cute little adorable Jaan kitten got disturbed in her sleep and starts biting me haha. I have to push her slightly at times to make her understand that hurting me and anyone else is not okay. Right now I'm staring at this huge 2 inch cut on my left wrist that she gave me two days ago at night. Then one of the reasons while I was talking with Him and I told Him that I don't wanna hurt her and she doesn't die please. She was kinda sleeping while in my blanket and didn't move when I nudged her. I freaked out a bit. Btw the kitten is for all of us, me and my sis and bros. Dad bought it ten days ago. Now, everything is interconnected. I love him so much and can't imagine my life without him but