I would go on a rant and how my web design instructor really didn't go through the course rigorously and properly, or guided us in the right direction (well that he did). But I won't. Not with the relapse going on.
I do love codes, if I'd known some years, might as well could have been that I chose that field of study but I'm so thankful for where I am today. I'll get the hang of website design. Infact I'm toying with it these days and loving it. It's just the technical parts that really make my head hurt. I have to overcome that. But hey, no one is perfect, yeah? So I'll get better at what I'm good at. Exploring, watching tutorials etcetera and moving stuff here and there would do I suppose. I do have a plan and I'm going to execute it. (Picturing the plan being an actual being and me executing it hah).
I may not be doing an internship like the rest of my whole effing class is and we're supposed to be. My GPA might be dropping weirdly +14 points as it has never before this year. I might not want to see anyone and cry for hours (well I've gotten control of this now). I may get pangs of relentless feeling of not being able to belong somewhere, maybe anywhere with anyone. My sketching might have gotten rough. I may be leaving my work halfway through. BUT. I'LL GET THRU THIS! Oh, yes I shall. I always have and I will not give up now. I have come this far. Two decades and some years... Not now will I succumb to mindly demons. I'll do this all with a strong heart, a smile, teary eyes and weary legs, passionate gait and piercing eyes. Ever watchful gaze.
xoxo
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P.S. it rained so much today. The water got into my room and the living room. But it was so beautiful. Hearing the raindrops smash like bolts of fire on the window glass. Trees wiggling like ribbons in a warm, spring morning. Lalalalala.
P.S.S I'll post a tutorial post here about Premiere and WordPress once I'm there. (:
