Sometimes you just want to catch up with the world, with your peers and do things at the same pace, think like that and don’t want to accept the fact the its not possible and not everybody is same. Being speedy or witty or sharp is not all what life is about. You trust someone, you want to trust, you love and care, but at the same time you just can’t fully do it too, because of certain innate reasons. In my opinion, it's also about going along and holding on, make a stand where you’re comfortable and where you can carry on easily. And, of all, accept it that you can't obviously get some things that you want. Hardly a single soul will understand you but it doesn't matter.