Hello. Somebody there?

Hum kiyaa hain teray saamnay

Ikk jhalak main garak hou keh reh jataay hain 

So blatantly true. This just made me tremble like so much. There are infinite things to stay, but I just cannot get them out. This block is stupid. Though had so much relief and a comfortable time at the Film festival. Met old peeps. We really, really do need to bring this respect and acceptance in ourselves while watching a movie. Cinema has the power to transform our lives. Its such a huge medium that you just need to bring it along the tide or the tide will get swayed with it. This doesn't make sense? Err we'll see I guess. Too much throbbbbing just like Daru says when he's high on weed lol. Lalala "We need to get out of this scared-of-production-and-finance-constraints dilemma... We need to stick to diversity"- Sarmad Khoosat. 

"I fear the time when our cinema might get influenced  by the studio-culture"- Asghar Nadeem Saeed 

#INEEDSOMANYTISSUESGAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWD *InsertsInfiniteHashtags here* #PleaseTakeMetotheMoonPan 

PS. Watching San Andreas really re-ignited that studying-seismology-fever in me.. Blalala 

X Dates and Counting. Lulz.

So many dates! Whoa. LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL. Most amazing times I've had. I love you so much, my dear self. xD

#HappinessFTW #SayNoToTrashyStuff #HangOn

Would you?

I come to you broken and bruised
Would you still consider me your muse?
For this pain, I have no excuse
Oh, its a part of me, I won't refuse
A dilemma really? Are you that confused?
You just will not know, would you?
Your inquest, it's madly profuse
Our love was meant to diffuse
Nothing is nowadays does amuse
Sugarcoating it is no longer a use
Empathy and understanding is what you've lost
You just will not know, would you?


Captain America I love you so much! And Argo-fuck-yourself. xD Ben Affleck you go. *Hearts*. Drafting class really fucked me up today. Insane work to do. Measurements have never been my thing! I won't stop though, now. Would I? And you know what, pressure is good, albeit not that much. There are times and always will be when you're almost off the fence but you just have got to hold on. There are much brighter and happier things to focus on. Books, movies.. The world isn't short of stuff that you won't find solace in. Let it break you, only it won't break you or stop you, it's going to build you and weaponize you even more than before. So keep storming through those pathways with a smile and hope. There's and always will be a light when all other lights fade out. *Okay, I'm treading towards -Lord-of-the-Rings-sick-emotional-state-where-I-miss-Frodo-and-Galadriel-and-every-tiny-bit-in-those-movies* And God, I don't dislike to be with people. If they go away what can I do? Try to dig deep world or just mind your own stuff. Always so keen to meddle in others lives. -.-
#IAmWhereIBelong

PS. The beats and melodies of Chevy Knights (trust me I typed night at first) are so soothing! 

A Way...

I now understand why I cannot write these days. It's frigging unfair. Unfair. Unfair. Unfair. A bit sad. And lonely. I don't lament what has come to pass, but nor do I forget what it has taught me. Some things that were not supposed to be, are, and those that were, perhaps have drifted somewhat out of reach. My soul passes out of touch of genuine-ity and I hurt those I dare not for in their happiness lies my salvation and they are those who have been there. Some that I thought would be with me have left. A mark flares inside my heart from the sadness of their leaving. I am angry over such a long time. Waiting for ghosts. But no longer. Once I find a way, I shall bury my relationships, those that give me pain and bring agony. It won't be regretted. Ever. Just a memory that will make me smile is all it shall stay. But all that is can't be yours. I don't push people away, albeit it sometimes seems I'm very repelling lol. In the end, after all, your best companion is your own self. Anyway, I shall continue to struggle. It will be good for... 

ITS RAINING! WINTER REALLY IS COMING. :D 

Zimmered!

Cornfield Chase! So Beautiful. And M83's Oblivion track. AND Ramin Djawandi you rule the way. Come, come Westeros, I am waiting. Heart into infinity... <3<3<3<3

I must add, it is absolutely not alright, to do all that sword and chain and God-knows-what lashing at yourself in the month of Muharam, especially at the 9th and 10th. However, everyone has their way so.... Regardless, did the Prophets' nephew want you to do this?! No, right. So, why in the world would you tend to this ... way? There's this sad and really bleak aura in the air by the way, like the days and evenings since a day or two have been so lonely and sad. Silence. And Quiet rules. And we will go whence we came. Hands down in respect. (I hope I don't get arrested for this)

And I saw these two amazing short films about our Army! I love My Army. Long Live Pakistan. There MUST be feature films about our army! We're no less than any Army. Being our parallel is hard. Yes.

And AutoCAD, you be such a weird fad! Howard I love you even more now, by the way. My heart is, Forever yours. Hahahahaha. Lol. xD

Some pretty cool tracks:

Cornfield Chase- Hans Zimmer
Winterfell- Ramin Djawandi
Somebody to You- The Vamps
Crazy Youngsters- Ester Dean
Flashlight- Jessie J and Barden Bella's version
Heartbreak Dream- Betty Who
Kari Kimmel- Nothing Left to Lose
Do I Wanna Know?- Arctic Monkeys
Wake Up- Captain Arctica
All Night- Icona Pop
Favorite Record- Fall Out Boy
A song or two (I've only heard them as of now)- Five Seconds of Summer
How Come You Don't Want Me- Tegan and Sara

PS. I need to update my playlist... 

It Will

'...Folks in those stories had the chance to turn back, only they didn't, because they were holding onto something....' Awwhhh Sam, I love you. So yeah, even if it's the ocean against your small boat, keep going and row along. Someday, it shall come an end and all will matter.. It will. :P 

Helms Deep, Oh How I weep haha

Saruman, you foolish twisted idiot! Now taste the wrath of Ents. xD

OH GOD HOW I LOVE WATCHING THIS, FOREVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR. :D

PS. Stupid jaw, stop hurting pliss. 

SomebodyTo You

Thank you so much God! I came across this. Sweet kind of therapy. When the waves try to sway you away something always comes for you to hold on. Lovely music. And voices. 

Yeah you!
Yeah you!

I used to wanna be
Living like there's only me
And now I spend my time
Thinking 'bout a way to get you off my mind (yeah you!)
I used to be so tough
Never really gave enough
And then you caught my eye
Giving me the feeling of a lightning strike (Yeah you!)

Look at me now, I'm falling
I can't even talk, still stuttering
This ground of mine keeps shaking
Oh oh oh, now!

All I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah
Is somebody to you
All I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah
Is somebody to you

Everybody's trying to be a billionaire
But every time I look at you I just don't care
'Cause all I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah
Is somebody to you (yeah you!)

I used to ride around
I didn't wanna settle down
But now I wake each day
Looking for a way that I can see your face (Yeah you!)
I've got your photograph
But baby I need more than that
I need to know your lips
Nothing ever mattered to me more than this (Yeah you!)

Look at me now, I'm falling
I can't even talk, still stuttering
This ground of mine keeps shakingOh oh oh, now!

All I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah
Is somebody to you
All I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah
Is somebody to you

Everybody's trying to be a billionaire
But every time I look at you I just don't care
'Cause all I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah
Is somebody to you (Yeah you!)

Look at me now, I'm falling
I can't even talk, still stuttering
All I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah (Yeah you!)

All I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah
Is somebody to you
All I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah
Is somebody to you (Yeah you!)

All I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah
Is somebody to you
All I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah
Is somebody to you (Yeah you!)

Everybody's trying to be a billionaire
But every time I look at you I just don't care
Cause all I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah
Is somebody to you (Yeah you!)

Cause all I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah
Is somebody to you (Yeah you!)

Yeah you!

Just came across Me and My Shadow! Prolific! Yay. *Puts it up the to-watch-list* 

It gets dry and kinky, but cool!

Someday the world as I saw and knew it, would fade away into forgetfulness, as I shall go. And not a soul would ever know it, like I did... Lol. xD

#TooMuchStudioTime #Drawing #BlackHands #TessellationsFTW #HotelIsHere 

Pan, Pan, Pan! PAN is coming! :D Pixie dust. Green Wendy and Hook! Oh hook! :P 

'There are more wallflowers in this world than popular kids'. SO Aptly said, Nina Dobrev. 

Dirty Ugly *I don't remember what comes after xD*

The dufffffffffffffffffffffffffffff. OH MY GAWD. Its what I needed so badly at this moment of peak battling! Yay. Lolololololol. 

Breathe

Sometimes when things don't make sense, people you love betray you, hurt you, you just gotta let go, and be it for good, because you never know what's going to come next; it's better to lalala and erase everything, start over and just breathe...

#IMissEmms #Hotelhotelhotel 

SOMEONE TALK TO ME PLEASEEEEEEEEEEE! Manto ka bhoot bhee aa ke merai se baat kre gaa tou mein khushee se krloun gee. Fuck this bs lolz. xD Emms you're leaving too. Nooooo. :P 

It shall

It shall soon be over, you. Give yourself one reason why it can't or won't, Mishaal. One reason. Can't find it, yeah? So, yes, trust me and hold on. You've been on your own for most of the times, (you have amazing people, but in the end it's just you and your mind) this battle will cease soon at last. Live in the moment. And partay.

Okay? Okay.

I can't wait to check-in!

I CAN'T! I just can't take my eyes off this hand of hers. So alluring. 

#Hotel #AHS #Fear #Hooked 

Growing up

I do, I do understand why Peter Pan never wanted to grow up. Gawddddddddddddd. Growing up is fun. You do this. You do that. But really, it's my privilege that a part of me will never grow up. Maybe I'll need it later. Albeit I am glad for whatever is to come and has long gone. Better stop, before I go on writing like this.

<3 

I Am Manto

The worst and most hurtful betrayals always come from your family or those you love so much... I think that is when a person dies... Not when he is not in this world anymore, but at that time when that fish is cast out of the sea alone while all other fish swim along. Anyway, I shall prevail. I'll die, but never submit to the sickeningly stringent demands of this plagued society.

I saw 'Manto' the movie, though, last Friday. Just could not bear to take my eyes off the screen, even for a split second. One of the most prolifically splendid and tragically sad movies I've ever seen. So touchy and blatantly true. He'll live in our hearts forever. And so will his stories. So proud to be a Pakistani and a part of this land. I could write on and on about how his life was such an enigma. He rose up from the ashes even when the flames were irrevocably hungry to gulp him down. Undying hero.

#ImissManto #IAmManto

Oh Lord, may everyone stays safe in Holy Ka'abah! So... No words. 

What.

I can do whatever the hell I'd want to. I will be whoever the hell I want to be. I'll wear whatever the **** I'd deem and will. I don't need or want somebody to lay out my life ahead for me or tell me what to do. Not some freaking robot. Retarded stereotypes. May they die in peace. Misguided lies. And snake like matriarchy. Even deadly than those patriarchs. I feel sad for the people who are so blinded by their egos and yet are so blatant and adamant on projecting it upon me and other women like me. Tsk tsk. May the men; who respect and give greater regard and consideration to their individuality, and love them for who they are, etcetera, be ever happy and blessed. And when the time comes, I hope there is somebody to put me down and take me away from where no one comes back, that is, in case stuff goes deviated and I turn out to be what I never preferred or would like, or my mind gets de-railed. Cause' sometimes I just feel like losing it! 

Let Go

Oh yes! I do control what I feel. Ergo, lets feel um what it is, oh yeah, crazyy. And don't care ever. All that twinchy stuff, into the ground, dig. Dig. Dig the soil. Put it up, fill the hole. And


Let Go.

Let. Go.

I will always do it. Always. 

REBMETPES 72th! KOOH! AMME! 

 

This made my day! No regrets awhyeah. It's okay, silly. 

YOU KNOW WHAT? TO LEMONS WITH EVRYTHING ELSE! I'M GOING FOR IT AND I WON'T STOP! I WILL GET IT. 

People can be mean. What they see, can be unseen. Blalalala. 

Yes, we ARE. Forever.

New times start, a new world starts', but well, um, uhhhh, it's not the same and some part deep down inside your heart whatever it is, whoever it is, or... you miss it, no matter how much you are over it, live with it, block it out, contain it ( couldn't I get a better word here?) you still remember it. Lalala.

Oh my God, this is just so irrevocably beautiful like one of the most beautiful and sad and touchiest thing I've ever come across. If words can do this to you, I mean bring out such emotions in you I have no idea what people, in person can. Oh wow. I haven't even started to come across stuff. Oh God. Whoa.

"Having a friend light-years away taught us that distance is just a state of mind. If you're best friends, then you always will be... No matter where you are in the universe." 

This is for all of the best friends and friends out there! Not jealous or anything, yeah. I am so honored to have you angels as my friends! You know it. <3^∞

There's this one fluffy one lying next to me, but well he's so small. And he's much more than a friend. A Part of My Soul. My Heart. My Soul. My bacha.

PS. You have no idea, how much you people mean to me. xx 

Infinity

'You know how much I love you?' 'Infinity times infinity'

PS. He's just so GORGEOUS! Oh God. So SO cute! Awhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

 Such adorable kids.

He's wearing I guess, five thingies, So much cold.

AND well, lastly;

SO TRUE ! ^Nathan's so looking like a white walker lulz. 

This is Mishaal Tariq, signing off. (Oh yah. I do, Miss my TV lectures and the shooting stuff lalala!) 

BUT I MISS MY FRIENDS THE MOST! If I could teleport like Gordon I would. I really really would. Hydra won't catch me. Stupid octopus organization. Even with Whitehall dead they're like still growing, Damn you, Ward. Anyway where was I? Yeah. And watching my baby sleep. Maybe I could wake him up? But he has his school tomorrow. Mayn! 

Detachment and the thingies

Maybe and well not maybe, it is somewhat my perception. Um, not perception, but the inclined and derogatory creepy, okay a bit creepy (am I trying to dissuade myself here? Uh-oh lol) So, yeah, it’s my thoughts and whatever the situations and happenings have led me to believe (not blaming anything but seriously, it is true) that whomever I meet is going to detach from me and one way or the other most of the people I want or desire to be my great acquaintances/friends/loved ones cannot be. It hurts a lot. Albiet I must believe, that I can’t hope or long to be with most of the beings I come across; meet with, spend time with, talk with and so on… Lalalalala. People always leave. God, the tremors aren’t stopping! I need them to stop, please. PLEASE! Come on. :/ 

The Family that is NOT!

For chrissakes people grow up. This post is intended for every person out there who thinks adolescents, especially women should not have a say in how and when to choose their lives or keep fantasizing about this issue! 

It's so abominably inflammatory and funny at the same time when you're a girl, and that too in Pakistan; the moment you seem to get old (in your family's eyes) you MUST walk properly, cover yourself (yes, my dear friends, note that. Cover yourself. Become a mummy. AND not point it out to those flagrant insolent assholes who just can't lower their fucking gazes). Get into the kitchen. Manage 'stuff'. Try to learn about how to handle situations (God knows what hypothetical situations, one must have in their minds). I mean this is just scratching the tip of the iceberg. If you go out alone, by chance, vehemently, that's an unforgivable sin. Oh, and here's the best part lol, think about the future lol, you know the trash stereotypical marriage BS, I mean it's one individual's bloody right to decide and choose whether they would like to have a family or be with someone or choose whatever life (well yah, fate is there but still) they would like to go for; to live in peace rather than to get into a mess (in most cases sadly). To freely and without any prejudice and pressure, choose if they want to spend their time with people or alone. It's not egotistical or narcissistic, let alone rude and abnormal! Purely justifiable. How utterly despicable to give someone (men, MOST of them) the edge to be assholes and submit your will and sacrifice your priorities, to their trashed and bruised egos.

People don't even speak about it, like its tabooed and something shameful. Let me tell you what shameful is: your pathetic perceptions! And man oh man, choose a career/study path, that won't affect or distort your priorities towards any hypothetical family/situation in their minds, and disturb your household work! Nonsense! Utterly despicable derailed and plagued mindsets of this so called oh-so-developing region. Hahahaha.

PS. I really don't like it, so uncomfortable to get periods when you're sick as eff. Maynnnn. 

Come on Coulson, you can do this! 

I think when the worlds are colliding, you just have to live in the moment. Just see it through, no matter what the consequences. Let's go. 

I can just say this right now; PITCHES you are so perfect! ^_^ 

I'm Slipping Away

It's slipping away
From my hands
I'm dreaming away
Endlessly
What can't be
My eye's can still see
It's too hard to breathe
When you're away
If you could just stay
And we would lay
On this green and dirt
Talk into the night
Gaze at the stars
Blink away
No need to hold back
Let it happen
And dream away
Cause' I'm slipping away

Lalalala 

Wait...

Send your dreams

Where nobody hides

Give your tears

To the tide 

No time

No time

There’s no end

There is no goodbye

Disappear 

With the night

No time

No time

No time

No time

No time 

What if I could just...? It would be so much peace! :P 

Sometimes, life can be so unfair. Albeit it's okay. Let's just gulp it up with a nice shower. And 'The Worst Part' by Abigail Breslin. So lovely. 

IT JUST WON'T!

Why does it take seconds for everything to fall apart so quickly like it had no worth, like it never mattered, like a person never existed and like they never loved you or have spent so much time with you. And then it just falls.... And it takes ages, so long to fix it up. Every last bit of strength you have got left in you. Every last bit of tear that can't get out of the eyes for a stupid, okay not-stupid reason. And then you just want to get away. From all of it. Not give up but just go away you know. Far away. And don't come back. Ever. Cuz it won't matter! It just won't! Maybe it does, but some peace is always good and..... then fade away into forgetfulness forever. 

This is just so hurtful and unfair but very true!

“That is the fear: I have lost something important, and I cannot find it, and I need it. It is fear like if someone lost his glasses and went to the glasses store and they told him that the world had run out of glasses and he would just have to do without.” I hope nobody bails out anyone when they need that person or someone a lot. Ever. No one deserves to feel that way. So be there for each other and care. Just like, if not as someone who knows that person, as a human being at least. Why is humanity breaking so rapidly? I think this might be just the case. 

I am dying. Can I go out, please? 

Oh, come on. That sunlight after a nice rain or well, some rain. Not that I hate or even dislike it, its just that it be uncomfortable and cranky. :S 

It's just very consequential!

What follows is a quirky poem so read it at your discretion. Lol, I have no idea how it came to me. Must investigate. Anyway, it was dead of the night, and darkness befell me. I was alone. Lying on a red sheet. Hence, my mind drifted into somewhere I didn't myself know. Lulz. The thingy will be posted soon. 

So blatantly adoring

I think; in suffering is the beauty of life and in endurance the thrill of it all... 

Music, is the ultimate med

Some awesome ones I heard as of lately:

Beating Heart by Ellie Goulding
Atlas by Coldplay
Find You by Zedd featuring Mathew Koma and Miriam Bryant
Bad Blood by Taylor Swift

'We're fireworks with a wet fuse
Flying planes with paper wheels
To the Same Achilles heel'

Lalalalala

PS. That music in Fury by the way! SWEEPING! Around 1:35:38 – 1:36:28. 

Pronto!

Sometimes I just wonder and am so relentless for everything to just happen pronto and get done with it all like a whirlwind, but then the reality dawns upon me that when all that is keeping me hold on, wait, think and all, when it ends, what will there be left to do? So I suppose things, all of them are there for an unknown mystical reason. It's somehow a little bit annoying albeit it passes soon. Lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala. I really want to help people, work with cancer kids, stand on the road tell those trashing around to have a brain. Brainless beings, just like me haha. Work at a pizza joint. Meet this person, meet that person. Twirl over in the wind. Make a documentary about the Pakistani army. And when I do, I'd not regret getting a bullet um in my leg, I mean neck would be too brutal so... Do this, do that, do this do that.......... Gawsh. Something... Not this wasting away like this, please! A strict inequality - division slash-three.

^ Oh, I miss you too, Johanna.

And you ALLLL!

Note: (I apologize beforehand; if my, addressing humans like this causes discomfort to anyone) 

Foxcatcher

And all that time I thought it was Bruce Willis on that small Foxcatcher poster thingy on my rooms' door! Oh God hahahaha. Lol. Well, until I saw the movie. That feeling of Patriotism by the way. The Blue, Red and White flag. <3 

PS. I am about to explodeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Lalalalalalalalala. 

Carry The World

Alors, marre! Bored ennuyer ennuyer!

But I have my own world to carry so I suppose that's something I'll have to cease to afford. :P 

I don't know, but I miss Peeta. A Lot. :'( 

Ergo, Accio chocolate chip! 

Oh God

I could just stare at some pieces forever. So... *Wordless here* xD  

Oh come on Peeta! She's not a mutt, for crissakes. :S 

Divergent

I will always find you. Even if it means to drift away into another world. Lol. This is so pointless! It's a long journey', but it shall pass soon I hope. Funnay. :P :S 

Anyway, Shailene Woodley outsmarted her wits in Divergent! Alongside, Ansel Elgrot, Miles Teller whom I admire too and well as for Theo James this is his first that I've seen. AND I didn't know Ashley Judd was starring in it. I miss her role so much in 'Missing'. And voila the ending credits by Ellie. Beating Heart. Perfect beats and just very amazing. Also, Zedd and Mathew Koma did 'Find You'. Hans Zimmer executive produced the soundtrack! Yay. I think its' one of my all time favs apart from Harry Potter, LoR, The Hunger Games and Narnia. Well, Percy Jackson too. xp

And of course Kate Winslet! My Titanic <3 LOL 

PS. 'And I don't know where I'm going. But it's gonna be a long time.' 

THIS IS WAR. YOU GET ME. THIS. IS. WAR!!! YOU IDIOT LIZARD'S BABY! 

I suppose that's how it goes

Sometimes I wonder or maybe wondered that you could just erase some stuff, some people from your memory and try to let go and lose yourself in everything and anything you do, it's so amazing to be with yourself, and just get swayed by the stuff you do for your own self. It's not egotistical or indifference, but peace and calm and a justifiable thingy. Yes you do and you get very happy and all adamant about never giving up hope and you never do, but it never does go away does it? You have to live with it every moment if your life, what and whom you know. The people who are not there, who were, some times and some things. I suppose that's how it goes. It hurts, a lot at times, but we must hold onto our strength and smile and be glad that whatever has happened is good for and strive for the best of times even if our world seems to be masked by something dementing. It does end someday. I hope I end mine with a big smile. So yeah. It will be okay.

PS. :) 

The Hunger Games

It never matters if you go too far. Just go where your heart takes you. There you shall find peace. And in that is life. 

I like you so much Katniss! Josh Hutcherson too. And it was so awesome to see Sam Claflin in Catching Fire. Hearts. In your face, Snow. Not you, Jon. Wasn't talking about you. And that track! I knew it was COLDPLAYS'! Atlas. <3 I love you very much Coldplay. So soothing and relaxing. Whoa. Such good treats. Thank you God, in this messy world of wee bits of this stuff. :')

xx 

Yay

:D :D :D 

Oh Si!

Está bien ser una segunda prioridad tal vez. Mejor que no ser una prioridad en todos. Altera Lame.
: P 

Eid Mubarak!

Eid Mubarak, Human beings on the green and blue planet, called Earth that is near Venus. Tis' the festival of harmony, happiness, endurance and love. Eid is the festival, a celebration which marks the month of Fasting 'Ramazan' in Islam. It's exhilaratingly beautiful, the true essence of these days.

And we must always remember those who have departed and those who cannot celebrate it the way we do. Wear what we wear and eat what we eat.

Mesmerizing! Everything Muslims are proud of. 

I feel this intricate and inner joy and satisfaction when Eid comes after Ramazan and this year after the previous one I am glad I felt this way cuz last year well. Haha. Its irrelevant now. It so nice to meet everyone and eat eat eat what you cease to eat in the normal days.

Vermicelli (Calles seviyaan mostly, in the Indian subcontinent. Its a type of Pasta though) 

I like these floating ones more than the thicker ones. Uh-oh I drank too much cold-drinks despite of my no-drinks policy. xD Well, no worries, I suppose. My baby and baby cousin made my eid. Such gorgeous and handsome lovelies. And that sunset! Like awhhh. But I'm planning to not get the Arq Mehndi again btw. So much itching afterwards lol. 

Image source: Google. 

Life would be so much easier without a phone..... 

And I am Goneeeeeeeeeee

I am not there anymore! SO much relief. Sighs. I deleted my Facebook forever. Maybe I'll switch it back on to let some people know but yes. I shall stick to my decision. Phew. 

The Sixth Letter in Alphabet

I wrote this last night, but a power-cut ergo the delay. Anyway, what does it matter: 

That idiot stalker baby lizard! I'm a prisoner in my own room! NOOOOOOOOOOO! Help help help help. It is there, quiescent, like a statue at Madame Tussauds or perhaps a Peacekeeper is preventing me to start a rebellion in District Lunashire. What the sixth letter in the English alphabet. -.- And after two days of exasperatingly humid and intensely hot days, it's raining like God has plans to pour the seas, on us sinners. I cannot open the door or that big one might come in!!! Lalalalalalala. My eyes are like Toms, and they feel like taped to my forehead. I just can't close them, but am in dire need of sleep. Oh come on, you. Sleep. Please. Pretty please. I had to club these down cuz yeah I had to. 

It's very nice by the way when a book store owner you have a rapport with give you a wholesale discount. :D 

OG GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD! MY FRONTAL LOBEEEEEEEE! PLEASE STOP! 

How To Meditate

-lights out-
fall, hands a-clasped, into instantaneous
ecstasy like a shot of heroin or morphine,
the gland inside of my brain discharging
the good glad fluid (Holy Fluid) as
i hap-down and hold all my body parts
down to a deadstop trance-Healing
all my sicknesses-erasing all-not
even the shred of a ‘I-hope-you’ or a
Loony Balloon left in it, but the mind
blank, serene, thoughtless. When a thought
comes a-springing from afar with its held-
forth figure of image, you spoof it out,
you spuff it off, you fake it, and
it fades, and thought never comes-and
with joy you realize for the first time
‘thinking’s just like not thinking-
So I don’t have to think
any
more’

Jack Kerouac
(12 March 1922 – 21 October 1969 )

LETS PERSIST. All the way through the times. It will be a good time indeed. No matter what. If it's not. Let's make it good. 

Catnip times

Katniss Everdeen ! You're so classy. I like you.

This, though:

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The Night In Pink

It's Eleven in the night and what masks where this soul dwells is a ravingly pink sky. Maybe the cool and soothing breeze will just blow it away. Let us hope so. :')

PS. The title just moves me towards Sherly! Come on Christmas! Quick. Quick. Quick. 

Dance the way till the time comes

Yay. He is teaching me how to waltz. I love you so much babyyyy.

Dance the way till the time will come
I shall not try to cry and nor shall I run

OH GOD, YES! I can write again a bit. BUT YES. THANK YOU SO MUCH for giving my soul back to me.

<3 

Y u do this America?

Or maybe its just the effed up connections... 

I eat my 'Dates' apparently

My alters were talking this other day with me. I just take a date or two with liquids at the iftaar. And they said: You eat your 'dates'?! xD 

Go Kangaroos! :D 

I am burning it I suppose

'You turned the page, I burned the book' HAHAHAHAHA whoever said this must be so classy. xD

*Searches for the matchsticks* xp

Let's hope I don't burn me. Lelz. 

What should be the title?

It's so searingly cool, when you see a character in one of your fav movies and suddenly realize they have starred in one of your fav series as well. This other day I couldn't help but see Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince (I feel so sad about Snape always btw) anyway, so yeah and when Hermoine was casting this memory spell over her parents I realized it was Michelle Fairly! Who has also portrayed Catelyn Stark in Game of Thrones. Awwhhh. ^_^

Michelle Fairly as Catelyn Stark in Game of Thrones 

As Mrs. Granger in Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows (Part One) 

And then when Tonks and Lupin and all come to take Harry on his birthday, I knew it was her (Natalia Tena) who played the role of Osha in the series. :D

Natalia Tena as Osha in Game of Thrones 

As Tonks in Harry Potter series. 

Oh Bonkers!

Oh bonkers! I used my night-cream as the day one while on my way to BARKI road. See what I did there? Lol. I think maybe they should change the address to 'barki' road as per the signs say. xD 

...

Sow tyred 

Ghosts.2

I think I should and I must delete my Facebook account forever. It's just so draining. Like people... More like Ghosts, peeking in your room when you're changing and doing something solitary. Albeit it's not everyone, but most of them. I'd prefer genuine and honest friends rather than electronic friends. Seriously, this other day I was thinking, let's suppose one dies. Who'd really know lol?  Well, perhaps after days or whatever, but my theory and uh in fact reality stands resolute, who'd and how'd your folks actually come to know that you're going underground now haha. And then with those updates they think and you think too you know whats happening in their life but you DO NOT! Being with someone in person and talking with them about sth, and on the other, reading about their lives and all that it's very different. I don't even want to write about this anymore. Who'd get it anyway. Except.. I don't really know. I just don't. I miss you doves. </3 

Happy Fourth of July America! :D 

Age of Adaline

BLAKE LIVELY! So gorgeous. God, I'd go gay for you! LOL. I mean just in an adoring way. But she's just such a perfect actor. Such beautiful eyes and that smile.

And the movie. It was just so indescribable. Wow. I'm taken away. So taken away. Hearts. Hahaha

PS. Michiel Huisman made me miss Daario, hence Game of Thrones... Oh, Jon Snow. Why? Just whyyyy? </3