Untitled as of now

The joy of remembering was taken away from her. It was like she had lost herself. It was so hard to accept the truth. It was just like knowing that you were stuck in a drowning ship and waiting for the inevitable to happen. Slowly and painfully. In her heart she knew she didn't belong here. She had so little time left and so much to do. Her head was feeling awfully heavy. Endless things kept running in her mind, things that she wanted to do in her life, that she had to do but now, she thought, they'd die with her. It all seemed so fine back then. How possibly could it? She would never find someone who could let her in entirely, who'd always be there unconditionally and love her like there was no tomorrow. Someone who would connect to her differently from the entire universe. A person who would...
And she missed them even more than ever at that time. She didn't want to hurt them by leaving them so soon and like this. As Natt entered the room, she quickly turned aside and wiped off the streaks of tears that were there. He couldn't utter anything for whom he was going to lose was irreplaceable. She held his hand, the engagement ring was still there. In a low faded whisper she said, 'Promise me, sweetheart. You won't be sad after I go. Okay yeah, you can be a little bit sad and cry for a while but not more than that. Okay?'...

To be continued......

Sorry my flow of writing is broken badly these days. I hope I get through with it soon. Miss y'all. And thank you if you read stuff here. <3 xxx